I'm not who I was

I can relate to the lyrics, and I love the transparency of the people in the video.

Hope & Cake

I was thinking about hope & cake this morning. Weird combo right? I don't know why, maybe because I was e-mailing Sarah about something I was thinking about. I was telling her about a verse that I resonate with,
"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life." ~Proverbs 13:12
Some people don't take the Proverbs of Soloman too literally, but I think there is wisdom and truth in these little sayings. It is hard when something you hope for is deferred, it does make the heart sad. But then again, maybe it's better to wait? Because then one can appreciate the beauty of a longing fulfilled.
It's like trying to make really good cakes. You hope that you will make the best cake each and every time. But when you decorate a cake and you don't have all the techniques down yet, well your cake just looks a little frumpy and it's very disapointing. But the more you learn and the more patient you are, you eventually can make and decorate a half decent cake. You are the same person, but you just persevered and now you have something you didn't have before.
I guess what I am trying to say is, it is hard to wait, it is hard to have your heart be sick from a deferred hope. But then, how much sweeter will it be when your desires are fulfilled!
God is good.

"Hope abides, therefore I abide. Countless frustrations have not cowed me. I am still alive, vibrant with life. The black cloud will disappear, The morning sun will appear once again In all its supernal glory." ~Sir Chinmoy

Known vs Alone

My couz Kyle was telling me about a book he and my couz Kelly are reading called. “Why Am I Afraid to Tell You Who I Am?” by John Powell. And there was this quote that he sent me, “But…if I tell you who I am, you may not like who I am, and it’s all that I have.”



So I have been thinking about that. How real are we? Will anyone like me if I am me being me? Isn't that truly one of our biggest fears? Wanting to be liked\loved for who we are, but what if what we are isn't likeable? We want to be completely known, but then again do we?

The band Waterdeep has lyrics that say, "I don’t think I’ve ever wanted as much To be free as I’ve longed to be known. And of the things that I hate As I look at my life, The worst is my being alone.”

Here lies the conundrum: To truly be known by someone else is a scary process... but if we aren't known, is it more scary to be alone?

Ahhhh... Well hopefully I am as real as I can be even if it's scary... because who knows maybe me being real is just what someone else needs.

Deep thoughts for today, I usually try to keep it light... But Rachel (Hi Rach!) told me to write whatever was on my heart... so there ya go! :) Peace.

Nor Got Vaist

Back to Monday. This weekend was busy and eventful... From Friday to Sunday night. Saturday I went to a party at some friends of mine that I haven't seen in a long time. It was nice to see everyone. We played Spin Uno, which I had never played, but it's way more fun than regular Uno. Sunday I went over to my friends Mark & Bonnie's house. They are starting a group called Connecting the Body, where people can come together and fellowship. This was only the second meeting, but already there is a lot of interest. Afterwards Sarah and I went down to Nicollet Pavilion for a French Inspired Gala. It was quite interesting with performers and burlesque dancers! Ooh La La! Sarah and I sat down by the water and had a beautiful view of the sky line. It was a perfect night to be sitting outside and enjoying the summer weather.

The Best!

I have to say that I have the best cousins in the world! A total blessing just arrived at my door... a new AC unit! My cousins decided to buy me a new one and surprise me! And surprised and thankful and happy I was! I had a window AC, but when my ex returned it to me a few months ago, low and behold it didn't work anymore! :( Being that Minnesota can be cruelly hot in the summer... I was not looking forward to sweating my self into oblivion from June to September! Kyle & Kelly are my heroes!!! MEOW to infinity!

Cakes in a Cup

I've spent the last 2 days making cupcakes for different gatherings I would be attending\hosting. Thankfully it wasn't too hot in my kitchen, nor did my oven leak too much gas... (sometimes it's really strong!)

I made 2 different cupcakes, well technically 3...

Mojito Cupcakes and Chocolate Cinnamon Chipotle Cupcakes, some with powdered sugar & Cinnamon on top and some with Raspberry Jelly with Hot peppers...

Hopefully they are enjoyable.

I'm off soon to a party. Some of these people I haven't seen in months... should be interesting and fun all at the same time....

Seperated at Birth

I don't know what it is lately, but my cousin and I have been thinking the same thing at almost the same time! For example, yesterday I am reading a cook book on appetizers. At that same time I get a text message from Kelly saying, "I need some killer appetizer recipes." Strange? Then I tell her that I have something in the mail for her, which was a bumper sticker that I created. Low and behold when I was out with Bonnie last night, Kelly texts me and says "Check your e-mail as soon as you can." So when Bonnie and I got back to her place I checked my e-mail and Kelly had sent me a picture of something she made for me and was coming in the mail. Can you guess what it was??? The very same bumper sticker I had created for her!SHOULD=SHAME=PUKE!

She also made this cute little one about Jell-o and Kitties... She said that she is "afraid to park at church now" Like I said before, church potlucks and Jell-o go hand in hand. And although there is a 9 month seperation between me and Kelly, we really do sometimes share the same brain! You would think we were related, or at least shared the same grandparents!

A quick shout-out to Bonnie, who is my partner in crime! Another great night of laughter and pro-girl power!

Here's one for you Kelly: Tuna Delight Jello