See you in 2012

The Olympics are coming to an end. Now we will wait for another 4 years to see Olympics 2012 in London. Every night i turn the Olympics on. I cheer for my favs, I get supah dupah excited!

It has also been sweet seeing the sites of Beijing, where i could proudly say, I've been there! Forbidden City; Check! Summer Palace; Check! Great Wall; Check! Smog; check check check!

Even Marius got way into the Olympics, he cheered with the best of them. But in the critical moments right before Michael Phelps was swimming his last lap, Marius just couldn't handle the pressure. So he would look at me and giddily scream like a girl,

"I can't watch, I just can't watch!"

I know Marius, I know exactly how you feel.

Cha-Cha-Cha-Changes

I am at work. I can't concentrate. Again more changes. You know that feeling you get right before you go into something new? Like a new job, or big move, or a new relationship? That strange stomach thing that happens and that erratic racing of heart beats? I am feeling that way.
Not a bad thing. I just have a much anticipated next few days ahead of me. My job is going to be chaotic starting Monday. Everything at my job is up in the air. Not fun.
I don't like change, but I embrace it while it is happening. It's the before that makes me the most nervous. More nervous than the during or the after.
And this is a weekend of truly letting go and embracing what is ahead.
Most people who read this know that my ex boyfriend is getting married this weekend. I'm fine with that, really I am. I'm not just saying this to make myself feel better. I have had time to heal and grieve. It's a relationship that is very over. I wish him the best. But it has only been a little over a year since we broke up, and he is marrying someone else. It happened fast for him this time. I waited years with him to be ready. I thought i would even marry him. But I'm not, and I'm glad. Not because he is a bad person, but just because he wasn't the right person. Although it is an adjustment. For the years i was with him, I had planned my life with him, for the long haul. When it ended I felt lost. My life did a 180 and I had to quickly sink or swim. I chose swim. But even so, I still had years of memories, hopes and dreams with him I had to let go of. Even marriage. So as he marries another, I let it go, I continue to move on and I have never been happier. I hope no one pity's me or feels sorry for me. Be happy for me that I have a lifetime of good things to look forward to. Celebrate with me.

When I was going through the worst of it, i would read these verses over and over. Most of the time i would say, Will I ever be happy? Will I ever not cry?
It was hard to imagine a time when i wouldn't be sad. With time does come healing. God is in the sorrows and in the joys.

Psalm 126
When the LORD brought back the captives to Zion, we were like men who dreamed.
Our mouths were filled with laughter, our tongues with songs of joy. Then it was said among the nations, "The LORD has done great things for them." The LORD has done great things for us, and we are filled with joy. Restore our fortunes, O LORD, like streams in the Negev.
Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him.

Time for another move...

I just got word today that I can move back into the newly remodeled Media Center at the school. I have been working out of our District Media Building, and working out of boxes. I am ready to get settled in and back to normal. Although it's been kinda lame, can't play my music nice at the temporary building, now the reality is setting in that school is about to start. And the marathon begins. My goal is to work until at least May 09' because then i can say i have been at my job for 2 years and i can also say that I broke my world record for staying at a job. So far I have 1.5 years under my belt at one job. I am Michael Phelps breaking records. And hearts.

My Olympic Sport Would Be...

Synchronized Swimming

If the Olympic gods called me up and said,

"You will be given a chance to come to Beijing and compete in one sporting event and you will instantly be miraculously really really good, like Michael Phelps good, what event would you like to be in?"

Synchronized Swimming.

I love the water. I love being in the water. If I believed in reincarnation I would've been a mermaid in a previous life. The body in motion in water is so ethereal. Also, I can hold my breath for a really long time underwater. Whenever i am in a pool, i always try testing myself to see if i can swim the length of ANY pool underwater. So far, So good. See I'm a mermaid. Or if i was Zoolander I would say, MerMan, MERMAN!

Synchronized Swimming is such an artistically graceful sport, plus you get to wear sparkly swimsuits and lots of red lipstick. It's the pretty sport.

You also have to be really good at doing flips and kicks and so it also takes great athletic ability to be a synchronized swimmer. It's the perfect combination of beauty and athleticism.

What would your sport be?

Downtime

This past weekend was so nice and relaxing. I think i ended up cancelling 5 plans with people to just chill at home. Sometimes you just need one of those weekends to do nothing. I wasn't feeling 100% either, so i just wanted to be home. I did have Kelly and Kyle over for dinner last night, I made Coconut Basil Chicken Curry and Cucumber-Feta Salad. Then we ate Chicken Dinner that Kelly made. YUM!
Kyle suggested that we start having a once a month Stand-Up Comedy\Variety\Fun night. Where participants perform something silly to the amusements of the audience. This is going to be (h)Uge! Something along the lines of a His Mansion Family Night Variety Show! Ok, only a few people reading this will understand what that means, but were they not some of the best nights on the Hill?????
Feel free to contact me about getting your act in the show.

Lazy Saturday

I spent the morning with Nori and we had coffee and huge belly-ache laughs, the kind where you laugh so hard you have to grab onto the other person and they grab onto you and you both can barely hold each other up because you are so doubled over it almost hurts.
Then Nori and I went to the Goodwill and we ran around the store, trying on funny hats and shoes. Oh and when we found that huge chunk of marble and we laughed because it almost looked like cheese. And then that weird curly haired lady who kept following us around said, "Well I guess you could use it as a door stop or book end." Whatevs.
That same curly-haired lady whose name sounds like Micheal Phelps, she also kept asking me really private questions. But she totally used her husband as her alibi and would say, "Well Jake was wondering what you did for the past 10 years?"
When really we know that she just wanted the dirt, so she could make me out to be some drop out loser on her blog.
Good thing everything I told her, I made up.

A Little Emily Dickinson

A Something in a Summer's Day

By Emily Dickinson

A something in a summer’s Day

As slow her flambeaux burn away

Which solemnizes me.

A something in a summer’s noon —

A depth — an Azure — a perfume —

Transcending ecstasy.

And still within a summer’s night

A something so transporting bright

I clap my hands to see —

Then veil my too inspecting face

Lets such a subtle — shimmering grace

Flutter too far for me —

So looking on — the night — the morn

Conclude the wonder gay —

And I meet, coming thro’ the dews

Another summer’s Day!